I could be wrong here but...I'll go out on a limb.
See if anyone knows whom I'm talking about here....
Let's call it a riddle, or game.
Math is very valuable. However, that being said we can all agree it is a language. Some people's brains work differently. Take english as a language, how many people mess up their "expression" but know exactly what they want to communicate...
Right...learn the system in popular use, I agree...
Though at times...these people can sometimes produce beautiful poetry...which others can read alot into...maybe not understand, but their subconscious connects on some level and they take away something from it - abstract writing, abstract art...call it what we may. Note I mentioned, "some" of it. Let's not get into generalizations...those are just nasty. At times.
Communication is indeed an interesting thing. I think I understand Einstein on here when I say - the only edge some people have over others is that early on the teachers & students, or call them masters and apprentices - were on the same page...they may have gotten the answers that were already there correct...two similar brains passing along information in a mutually shared way.
However, yes that is ignorance of youth and learning about oneself. Or ...exploring the "unknown" - oneself...to some it's much more lonely and much more vast.
Confidence back then went down the shitter for some kids I'd imagine - what else could their overworking minds conclude but to accept their judgement? - makes for a nice personality eh?...appearing pretty selfish, when in reality it's just resentment on a much different level...ah for the judged to be judged and the circle is complete! but to break it and continue on? ...no man/woman is an island.
Some have to be apparently.
Rainman - good analogy ... good for nothing but blackjack lol ^^ (think of the movie reference...not a rip on you RMT
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A master of english, does not come out of the womb writing sonnets.
The mind has to learn steps in an "order of things" to make sense, but believe me, a pre-speech toddler is not "dumb"...I'm sure you'd agree.
Hell, I remember memories from before six months old. If I told you how far back some memories go, you'd probably laugh your arse off...or call a priest because that's - just not possible...
Well apparently alot of things are not possible...and I'm fine with that...I don't have an agenda...if you could look at my life you'd know that. Some people just wanted to fit in...social circle wise, and I'm sure I could tell you - some people master things others do not notice.
OCD - can that be "mastered" ? has alot to do with numbers.
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Those things are an old bag my friend. Forgotten history to some including myself. No sense in bringing them up I'm sure since ....childhood memories ahh...now, talking about myself? Sometimes I'm aware of too much going on around me when others think I'm not...and that makes a situation...uncomfortable for whom?
Dive in - dive out...swim when you need to. Sleep and wake up when you need to.
All great conversation I'm sure.
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My favourite color I wore all throughout youth and even until recently...blue...shades of blue...
I detested red clothing....something told me, I didn't appear correct in it when in 'social circles'.
Although I did have to admit, when I wore blue...god my eyes were deep blue...
'But when inadvertantly finding myself trying to figure out something....the steel/green now that was fashionable at times.
I've heard a great theory about Blue/Red...what do the other colors do?
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What am I saying? some people are never aware, some are partially aware, some are aware of what others are not - but sensitive to what they feel eminating as "alien" to them from fear or judgement.
Dive in -dive out.
So what am I saying?
Amazing grace - I got alot of work to do. Are the challenges only for me?
-generalization of life my friend :D
To sum it up.
There was a time when the numbers of others made no sense ...the numbers themselves - perfect sense. The method used even more obscure - when a reverse engineer could tackle it to "make sense" backward figuring - making something understood wholly, not just in stages...offends some egos when it's really frustration the other way around...so you tell me who really gives up?
Any difference now...?
Not always, but alot...I haven't had the time...but those numbers that once wouldn't "move" are fitting into place...under the right conditions...
If I could find the time, not alot, not forever...but "travel back" knowing what I know now...oh boy ! what a difference...hat's off to you Mr. Titor...
spend those 8 fast moving months crammed with 30 others very efficiently in a system designed for the variables "known"....the ones that aren't ...they'll either sink or swim...eventually
See... the reason I think I "know" more now...is because of three things;
a./ Confidence in myself
b./ The ability to focus and absorb for absurd amounts of time (probably only within around
the last five years of self realization - ...gets stronger).
b./ I geniunely know when I make a mistake
(if you see any spelling mistakes here it's because I'm in a hurry - it bothers me to no end).
There is no "bad" experience in life as long as you take a piece of that knowledge with you, tucked away ... for fast recall. That makes the future puzzle elementary.
If I had "time" to go back and fix all issues, surely I would... but the rat race to chase the cheese - "if the bear hadn't of stopped in the woods to take a [censored], it would have caught the rabbit"...so on.
Before an expert analyzes these "free-flowing" lines...maybe a game for a game
After all whom does not like a challenge my friend? :oops:
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I hope everyone found that an insightful read...it was really just philosophical speculation.
Now I have a question for anyone that made it this far...humor me plz.
If you could be any animal what animal would you be? - don't tell me why.
(P.S. Easter eggs anyone?
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