I am not trying to judge you. There are somethings I do not absolutely follow with your logic.
Foremost, I do not understand why you are so worked up. You seem to have gotten in your head that either time travelers are altering your life for the worse ? Or that you yourself will become a time traveler in the future? The only real thing I can say to that the first idea is: it is easy blame some outside force for life not being the way we want it. It is an easy excuse. It is much harder but more beneficial to make the changes to make the life we want to lead. Whether that be enrolling med-school to become a doctor who can save lifes or whatever it is that you feel has been taken away from you. As for the second idea, all I can say is that: I do not know ...
Foremost, I do not understand why you are so worked up. You seem to have gotten in your head that either time travelers are altering your life for the worse ? Or that you yourself will become a time traveler in the future? The only real thing I can say to that the first idea is: it is easy blame some outside force for life not being the way we want it. It is an easy excuse. It is much harder but more beneficial to make the changes to make the life we want to lead. Whether that be enrolling med-school to become a doctor who can save lifes or whatever it is that you feel has been taken away from you. As for the second idea, all I can say is that: I do not know ...