Thanks for : The time off" everyone--

Kanigo2

Kanigo2

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Thanks for : The time off\" everyone--

No-one wanted to hear anything I have had to say for a couple months... and I didn't want to remember MUCH of what I have said, either..


It has been- horribly rough, and will continue to get worse for a while, but I think I finally have a small hand grip- of what it will take to get through this...



FINALLY......


I understand that what I am speaking of is QUITE metaphorical... and unless you , basically understand, the point may slip by.


I have cleared my messages, and all caches.. to those of ya that helped ,I want to say thanks and the others that went looking for me, I do the same.

I simply did not want to prostrate myself, in this forum..


Its sad business, I do.


I have looked at the threads.. and I see jennifer- will never stop.. doghead. is loosing his wife.. and recall must have posted at least 800 obtuse links..

(those were to answer the things I saw as I ran through some threads.)



I lost more than, what everyone described... I also lost two months of my life.... and thats hard to get back.



I am saying, "hi", everyone.,"Forgive my hiatus".


...:) It feels GOOD coming back. even if I may be half I what I wanted.


It still feels honest.
 
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Re: Thanks for : The time off\" everyone--

No-one wanted to hear anything I have had to say for a couple months... and I didn't want to remember MUCH of what I have said, either..


It has been- horribly rough, and will continue to get worse for a while, but I think I finally have a small hand grip- of what it will take to get through this...



FINALLY......


I understand that what I am speaking of is QUITE metaphorical... and unless you , basically understand, the point may slip by.


I have cleared my messages, and all caches.. to those of ya that helped ,I want to say thanks and the others that went looking for me, I do the same.

I simply did not want to prostrate myself, in this forum..


Its sad business, I do.


I have looked at the threads.. and I see jennifer- will never stop.. doghead. is loosing his wife.. and recall must have posted at least 800 obtuse links..

(those were to answer the things I saw as I ran through some threads.)



I lost more than, what everyone described... I also lost two months of my life.... and thats hard to get back.



I am saying, "hi", everyone.,"Forgive my hiatus".


...:) It feels GOOD coming back. even if I may be half I what I wanted.


It still feels honest.
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Well there is a old saying "Don,t hold yourself a slave to what others think". Also, you can make some people happy some of the time but you can,t make everyone happy all the time. I myself have cut loose from time to time. Outside of this place I have read both good and bad comments about what the public thinks of TTI. Sometimes it is good for others to speak up and say what they have to say. I think your ok personally before and after your time off. There is a hint of common thought here which others try to reinforce and call that freedom of speech. I call it repression of free speech because it is slanted to a common thought here and critcal of outsid thought. It is like when specific religions form anyone with different thoughts they try to cast out. When others here are trying to tell you to take time off it is them that should take the time off. If they don,t like what you have to say then maybe they should not log on here anymore. Nothing is forcing them to stay here. I would not let that get to you too much here. Well I am done here.
 
Re: Thanks for : The time off\" everyone--

Two months? Try working contract. You can sit on your ass for six months, or it might be forever. So f...... what?
 
Re: Thanks for : The time off\" everyone--

Who really knows??


----------------------------------------------------------&gt;
They dont know--and even when they do-


they dont want to know- They are all to busy with madness...


But thanks for the feeling recall. I appreciate it..


I simply dont want to lay on the floor again and cry for 2 days-

I have had enough of that..
 
Re: Thanks for : The time off\" everyone--

i know what will fix you right on up, a rocky marathon! seriously, watch all the rocky movies, then listen to some good 'ol 80's music. you will feel like a new man in no time.

its time to get your groove back homie.
 
Re: Thanks for : The time off\" everyone--

We all go through cycles, with ups and way downs. I lost many friends and a few that were really close to me. I don't want to go into the details in the thread's on a public forum, but it is a tough experience. I know that if those whom I loved and lost could speak, they would want me stand strong, and to carry on.

Ruthless presented some excellent suggestions.

There was a time were I was extremely depressed and it made an impact on my life and my job, and fortunately my boss was a great motivational speaker, and pulled me into the office and had a "talk" with me. He provided some good pointers.

He told me that when someone becomes depressed, as he himself had been in the past, we become sensitive to negativity. He stopped watching and reading the news, saying that IF something happened that was "that" important, that would effect "my" life, I'd hear about it anyway. No need to go looking for more things to feed the depression.

I also collect western's, having at least a few hundred on the shelves, and when I start to slip into depression, I break out my Westerns and read of the ol'gunslingers. Standing in the street at high noon, facing seemingly insurmountable odds, the gunslinger drags iron and just keeps pumping out lead, no matter what, he remains standing, fighting despite what it is he is facing, unwilling to allow anyone or anything to take him down.

The dynamics going beyond someone throwing lead, but the mindset of the ol'gunslinger's helps to maintain some spirit in facing my own "internal" enemies.

Got alot of friends in many books, and in an odd sort of way, they are "always" there when I need them. Of course, there comes a point of letting them go back into their own world, and for me to continue in mine.

I eventually took out the phone book and looked at all the different groups in my area and joined a few of them, doing things like learning to knit yarn pot holders with a bunch of old ladies, things that I never seemed to have time for in the past. I also started to go to events that interested "me" that I was prevented from attending before.

Got selfish...and took some serious "me" time. Rented "stacks" of comedies, and watched them, even when I didn't feel like laughing, but some comedy was too much for me and I ended up laughing anyway.

Hang in there, brother. We're all pullin for ya ! /ttiforum/images/graemlins/tongue.gif
 
Re: Thanks for : The time off\" everyone--

I am just starting to understand it Kerr..

I know now why Ray likes ya..


Its a pretty rough journey..

If I didnt give a Cr@p... it probably would be much faster..


but that isnt the case...


Its hard to move on... when you put so much into your life...to see it end in such a way.


I am trying very hard..it aint pretty though.

I dont think it is for anyone.

but thank you.
 
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