I think I\'m stuck in a....
I think I'm stuck in a Predisposition Paradox? Check it on Wikipedia if you are unfamiliar with the term.
I recently tried to make a major "what if" change in my life to change it dramatically.
I did something I would never do, totally out of my character, but I was under the influence of some powerful drugs and ideas.
And it seems that no matter what I did to make this my future, I am still fated along the same path with the same people.
During the time this was playing out, strange time anomalies where happening, slips in my perception of time, whispers from people who were not whispering, completely polar attitudes manifesting, the world feeling "different", uncontrollable waking rapid eye movement (during which whispers being heard), feeling of slipping into other dimensions, signs from god, etc.
So... here's somethign I was considering.... if the whole world "ends" or on 2012, we only have 5 years left, and only a finite number of possible paths to reach the outcome. If everything has already happened, then the end is already known.
What if my outcome is set in stone, so that no matter what I do can't change it?
Because to change it, would mean a different outcome at 2012 which is already destined?
Perhaps if i tried to change it a few years ago the universe could compensate in time and make a different outcome that was correct?
In fact... what if me trying to change it is what is actually making it continue to happen?
Anyone familiar with what I am talking about?
I think I'm stuck in a Predisposition Paradox? Check it on Wikipedia if you are unfamiliar with the term.
I recently tried to make a major "what if" change in my life to change it dramatically.
I did something I would never do, totally out of my character, but I was under the influence of some powerful drugs and ideas.
And it seems that no matter what I did to make this my future, I am still fated along the same path with the same people.
During the time this was playing out, strange time anomalies where happening, slips in my perception of time, whispers from people who were not whispering, completely polar attitudes manifesting, the world feeling "different", uncontrollable waking rapid eye movement (during which whispers being heard), feeling of slipping into other dimensions, signs from god, etc.
So... here's somethign I was considering.... if the whole world "ends" or on 2012, we only have 5 years left, and only a finite number of possible paths to reach the outcome. If everything has already happened, then the end is already known.
What if my outcome is set in stone, so that no matter what I do can't change it?
Because to change it, would mean a different outcome at 2012 which is already destined?
Perhaps if i tried to change it a few years ago the universe could compensate in time and make a different outcome that was correct?
In fact... what if me trying to change it is what is actually making it continue to happen?
Anyone familiar with what I am talking about?