PlashedVentral
Temporal Novice
My name is Mr. X for all intents and purposes. I travel through time. Not in a time machine. Not in a Delorian. In my mind.
I have been cursed with this "illness" since I was 10 years old, following an alien abduction 3 years prior.
I have confessed these feelings with two seperate shrinks. One of them diagnosed me with having Schitzophrenia (sp?). Another shrink told me that was absurd and I'm just suffering separation anxiety from a failed relationship.
A physisian has performed a CT scan and xrays on the head to look for abnormalities, all tests came out negative to my relief and suprise.
The problem here is I have two fantastic stories: An alien abduction and Time Travel. Since this is not an alien abduction forum, I will leave those details out, however, I will be happy to answer any questions about it if asked.
My time travel experience is not what you might think. I cannot, at will, zap myself forward or reverse in time. It happens totally beyond my control, at any time, however, the frequency seems to be around every 6 months.
Here's what happens. I will wake up in the morning and have a complete memory loss of previous days. My shortest memory loss has been 2 days, and the longest 21 days. It takes me about a day to realize I have a gap in memory.
In the beginning I did not attribute this memory loss to my feelings of deja vu. It was only in my early 20's when I started making the connection and was able to "expect" the expected.
What I do once I have a memory loss is quite an intense ritual. I go on the internet and search the news groups. I read the news every day, so it doesn't take me long to realize how much of a gap of memory I have.
Now what happens is the odd part. After my memory loss, I continue living my day to day life for the length of time of my "gap", then repeat it, then life continues normally.
For example, last year I had one incident, on June 3rd through to June 6th. I have a complete block of memory from that period. On June 8th I realized this. On the 10th I relived June 7, 8 and 9. Since June 10, I've had no incidents.
Now let me explains how I feel when I relive these episodes. It's kind of like, remembering forward. On my second time around, I cannot tell you what the DOW JONES was at, say, on June 8th at 2:02, no more than you could tell me what the DOW JONES was at yesterday at 3:30 (without looking it up).
I relive the second time *exactly* as the first time, doing the same things but experiencing tremendous deja vu and predictions up to 2 days before the event.
When I try to change an event, I normally do not succeed. However, I have managed to change a few things a few times. I have managed to predict events.
When I dream the second time around, I believe I dream of events during my missing time period.
I believe I am due for another episode soon. I will be able to post that I've had a memory gap, and predictions and deja vu if they are significant.
I'm hoping to find more about this illness by posting here, firstly, by identifying anyone else who has had similar experiences;
I have not disclosed this publically until now. It wasn't until I heard the story of John Titor that I was willing to post publically. John appears to have supporters, and I am looking for the same support, only to understand and to better deal with this.
I expect most of you think I am nuts, and I have not discounted this. In all probability, there is something mentally wrong with me. But my predictions do not lie. And this is what scares me.
If I am not welcome, please say so, and I shall seek advise elsewhere. I am not interested in wasting anyone's "time", as I know how precious it is.
Thank you for your attention,
Mr. X
I have been cursed with this "illness" since I was 10 years old, following an alien abduction 3 years prior.
I have confessed these feelings with two seperate shrinks. One of them diagnosed me with having Schitzophrenia (sp?). Another shrink told me that was absurd and I'm just suffering separation anxiety from a failed relationship.
A physisian has performed a CT scan and xrays on the head to look for abnormalities, all tests came out negative to my relief and suprise.
The problem here is I have two fantastic stories: An alien abduction and Time Travel. Since this is not an alien abduction forum, I will leave those details out, however, I will be happy to answer any questions about it if asked.
My time travel experience is not what you might think. I cannot, at will, zap myself forward or reverse in time. It happens totally beyond my control, at any time, however, the frequency seems to be around every 6 months.
Here's what happens. I will wake up in the morning and have a complete memory loss of previous days. My shortest memory loss has been 2 days, and the longest 21 days. It takes me about a day to realize I have a gap in memory.
In the beginning I did not attribute this memory loss to my feelings of deja vu. It was only in my early 20's when I started making the connection and was able to "expect" the expected.
What I do once I have a memory loss is quite an intense ritual. I go on the internet and search the news groups. I read the news every day, so it doesn't take me long to realize how much of a gap of memory I have.
Now what happens is the odd part. After my memory loss, I continue living my day to day life for the length of time of my "gap", then repeat it, then life continues normally.
For example, last year I had one incident, on June 3rd through to June 6th. I have a complete block of memory from that period. On June 8th I realized this. On the 10th I relived June 7, 8 and 9. Since June 10, I've had no incidents.
Now let me explains how I feel when I relive these episodes. It's kind of like, remembering forward. On my second time around, I cannot tell you what the DOW JONES was at, say, on June 8th at 2:02, no more than you could tell me what the DOW JONES was at yesterday at 3:30 (without looking it up).
I relive the second time *exactly* as the first time, doing the same things but experiencing tremendous deja vu and predictions up to 2 days before the event.
When I try to change an event, I normally do not succeed. However, I have managed to change a few things a few times. I have managed to predict events.
When I dream the second time around, I believe I dream of events during my missing time period.
I believe I am due for another episode soon. I will be able to post that I've had a memory gap, and predictions and deja vu if they are significant.
I'm hoping to find more about this illness by posting here, firstly, by identifying anyone else who has had similar experiences;
I have not disclosed this publically until now. It wasn't until I heard the story of John Titor that I was willing to post publically. John appears to have supporters, and I am looking for the same support, only to understand and to better deal with this.
I expect most of you think I am nuts, and I have not discounted this. In all probability, there is something mentally wrong with me. But my predictions do not lie. And this is what scares me.
If I am not welcome, please say so, and I shall seek advise elsewhere. I am not interested in wasting anyone's "time", as I know how precious it is.
Thank you for your attention,
Mr. X
