ruthless
Rift Surfer
i just got through reading all of the private messages i have had over the years here at tti. it is amazing the range of emotions i have had during the past few years. it is also amazing how much people taught me.
one thing that upsets me is that i let myself get extremely personally involved in the titor saga. i want to thank darby for bringing me back into reality on several occasions. i did some extremely stupid things to try to bring the hoaxer to light, and i apologize to everyone i offended. the smartest thing i did was let it go. if i would not have, i would probably be in a straight jacket, rambling about 2036 and laughing hysterically.
during my time here, i got severely depressed, and i want to thank ray, darby, and kerr for their friendship and for picking me up out of the dirt.
i want to thank ray for taking the time to teach me all that he did. ray, you spent alot of time teaching me things, and caring, and i am very grateful for that. not many have taken the time that you have to help me in ways i needed the most. with that being said, i have a confession to make.
up until january of this year, i abused drugs and alcohol. this played a big part in how i acted and it hindered me greatly in doing the things i wanted to. i did not want to say anything to you guys because i felt like i earned your respect, and i did not want to lose it.
it has been a long hard battle, but i am now clean, and clear headed, and i have my priorities in order. i want to thank you both for not letting me become lost.
i have attacked you both, and i could blame that on my own personal problems, but the blame falls solely on me. i apologize for my actions, and i have been humbled by it. in the past, i have acted very narcissistic, and my actions have led me to realize i have a lot to learn.
i apologize for the long post, but i feel it is necessary. after ten years of seclusion and sitting on my behind, i finally feel like i am prepared to do something with my life.
on that note, i will be taking a leave from tti for a while to maintain focus on my goals. i will return one day, but for now, i think it is best if i focus on the journey ahead.
thank you all for the great times and fond memories. thank you.
one thing that upsets me is that i let myself get extremely personally involved in the titor saga. i want to thank darby for bringing me back into reality on several occasions. i did some extremely stupid things to try to bring the hoaxer to light, and i apologize to everyone i offended. the smartest thing i did was let it go. if i would not have, i would probably be in a straight jacket, rambling about 2036 and laughing hysterically.
during my time here, i got severely depressed, and i want to thank ray, darby, and kerr for their friendship and for picking me up out of the dirt.
i want to thank ray for taking the time to teach me all that he did. ray, you spent alot of time teaching me things, and caring, and i am very grateful for that. not many have taken the time that you have to help me in ways i needed the most. with that being said, i have a confession to make.
up until january of this year, i abused drugs and alcohol. this played a big part in how i acted and it hindered me greatly in doing the things i wanted to. i did not want to say anything to you guys because i felt like i earned your respect, and i did not want to lose it.
it has been a long hard battle, but i am now clean, and clear headed, and i have my priorities in order. i want to thank you both for not letting me become lost.
i have attacked you both, and i could blame that on my own personal problems, but the blame falls solely on me. i apologize for my actions, and i have been humbled by it. in the past, i have acted very narcissistic, and my actions have led me to realize i have a lot to learn.
i apologize for the long post, but i feel it is necessary. after ten years of seclusion and sitting on my behind, i finally feel like i am prepared to do something with my life.
on that note, i will be taking a leave from tti for a while to maintain focus on my goals. i will return one day, but for now, i think it is best if i focus on the journey ahead.
thank you all for the great times and fond memories. thank you.
